School....

Well been back for about ummm 3 daaay = result, yes 3 days so yer missed 2days of school which is alwys good. Faveroute daaay much be tuesdaay not for my bad mood but cos i didnt fail science and im actully getting maths notpw and no longer feel a failure anymore :) but thursdaaay and getting 2 A's for geography and food tech that was a pretty good feeling to...but hey...no longer a failure anymore dudes.....yep thats me, ex failure :). Well for now anyhooo....what must go up must go down so yer C/D's at the readddyyy so yer welldone everyone in the grades and anyone who has had something good that happened, WELLDONE EVERYONEEE

If i could set up a charity....

It would have either to be for cancer or self harm,,there most proberly the 2 things that have effected me the most,, not that its me but like to people i no and care about...if that makes sence ? It does to me, bit yer cancer; had like nearly half my family diedmof it so yer life ammbission is to find a cure for it and to help thows who have gone through it or familys greef from a lost loved on. Self harm; well its not very well known and people neeeeeeed to no about it cos its not as simple as people may think, there is reasons behind it and its usually a way of getting through something difficult, so yer- thats what i would do? How about you??? X

There is always to stories...but sometimes you dont want to hear it :/

After a few years of trusting alot of friends i have kinda figured out that theremis alwyas 2 sides to everything, sure? Hear them both out, cos its only fair. But when one person says suffin and you think its the saaaame for everyone but then you find out thaat thatwell they have twisted the story to suit them, well thats just pisses me off, its much better just ti tell it straight because sooner or later it will get found out, like it has, i have found it out and i wont be saaaying nothing not yet cos im proberlyy waay out of what i think but its always gunna be there; so i dont thikmi could trust you any more, not for the moment anyway.... There is only 1story maybe with2 sides but thats always for 2different people not the 1 persn with the both sides of the story, cos thats what you call...... TWISTED ! TWISYED DUDE. !!!!!!

My 5 bits of happiness....LP.GR.IS.WG.LF

You five are like my dreams that have cometrue words cnt discribe how special they are to me, nearly all my life before meeting then was alwyas as a spectator, on the side and not really gettin involved but when i ment them i felt kike i belonged they are soooo nice and sweet, kind understanding, brave, loving, caring, beautiful, gorgeous, clever,forgiving, easy to talk to and well pretty much perfect... You may think im kiddin butnif you knew then you would just have to agree because i dont no what it would be like without then... And yes sometimes i cry of happiness when im soo glad go hve then cos i never want to loose then and i nooo iv done things wrong and wish i have eithr not did it or told then earlier... But i guess thats just me,imaa pretty shit friend and they do well i guess to even want me there, but there just to kind for there own good... If any of you are reading this all i want to say is thankyou for everything you have done for me and everythng you have had to cope with...iloveyou sooo very much so:') x

Dreams and nightmares....aint they the saaame?

Surly a dream and a nightmare are thr saame? To define a dream 'something you want to happen but hasnt' and a nightmare is 'something that hasnt happened but you dont want it to happen'right...but then maybe i want a little poodle (which i dont its just an example) but then to someone who may be alergic to dogs who hate then it would be there nightmare...right? Then surly we should have baaad dreams and good dreams? Good dream for me -wanting the dog and a baaad dream for the person who dont want the dog but tbh dogs are soooooo sweeet so who wouldnt want the dog?

All these posts are like megaaa random but it just reslly want i think ok atnthe toime of looking at peeps blogs..which btw loook aaaammmmaaaazzzziiinggggggg
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The clan who meets up on mondaaay form times....

The group that meet up at form time on mondaaays is a group that really inspire me to be someone because they are all soo very amazing- its nice to chat to a different group of people to chat to and to lean apon when i need then or when they need me...cos yes you , laura,lauren,amy,katie and becky iloveyou very soo very muchly, your soo special to me and i wish to have you forever, close to my heart cos your just a true insperation to anyone who wants to be someone...iloveyou xxx

Age is just a number...right...

Im 15 right... Well i think im rather mature for my age, right but i noo some 17-18 year olds who well are not all that mature for there age they fool round and ruin everything- but yer if your one of thoughs unmatured idiots then man ok dude, cos you pathetic and you actually need to grow up before you ruin your life and regret it.

Words speak louder than actions....

I have had alot of ...so called problems with the so called male type but i tell you on thing when they act all cute and perfect, dont be fooled cos you dont really no how they are feeling until they truely express there love for you its like a dream comr true when you here thows 3 words- as soon as they leave his lips and meet your ears you life is complete, and everything is good and happy and pretty much perfect, until they meet someone else and you become garbish and put at the back of there mind and well pretty shit feeling but then you just have to get over it because tbh the majority of 'boys' like to get arround...ow and btw make sure your the one wearing the trousers, cos othetwise they will walk all over you and WILL hurt you whether its sexual or not... But i no for sure there is someone out there for everyone:)

No need for mascara on the weekend....

Beauty... I never ever wear mascara unless im going to school or out for a mesl or mates are coming rounf other wise im free of it. I try soooo hard to look respectable where people are there but its really not me, im not perfect, no one is. I hate magazines covered in so called beautiful faces...covered in makeup and trying sooo hard to not bee thereselves... Some people are natural slags but the majority of us out there are wearing it because we feel better when its on but surly we should't cos its covering who are, and that sucks cosmwe all need to be are selves otherwise we will always have something holding us baaack, beauty aint the stuff you by from boots i can promise you that :)

When you feel love...rethink your actions.....

LOVE;
dont even get me started with love its the one thing we all feel Sometime in are life, whether it be a lush maaaan or a hot chick or maybe your pet goldfish, but putting fishy love to the side - and since i havnt fell in love with girls it may be diffrent but for throughs babes out there in love with some lushing-loving maaaan then READ THIS.....

You need to feel it deep down right in the middle of your heart its as if your high on drugs 27/7...
They make each breath worth taking,every morning when you arrive at school you get butterflies and you go all squishy and fill up with warmness and your eyes start to leak and you smile ear to ear and then you walk even faster than usuall cos you want to spend even longer to there voice which you love to her because well its like music to your ears.
MUSIC;
alot of thows soppy love songs are depressing but the song' this =love' by the script. Everyword is exaclly as it is... Listen to it it makes me cry everytime because i wish this would all end like in fairy tales. But sometimes boy friends are not worth loosing bestfriends..so just think is it really worth loosing someone you love sooooo much just for a little piece of happyness and maybe a tad a sexually fun... BUT JUST THINK cos for me its just not worht loosing him.
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Having to watch someone go through the pain of anorexia...

PAIN;
Its rather hard to truly explain until you have to watch your best friend go through anorxia, if you havnt had to go through it count your self lucky cos you will save your self a lot of tears. When she told me, my life just crumbled under my feet. The first few days are thr hardest because you dont no what to say or do and you really wish its just a nightmare.... But then when all the hospital days off and clinics start then you no its for real and the tears keep flooding out, but i no i need to keep strong for her but its not tha easy its like saying no the something perfect.... But this is far from perfect well i say that but this may sound weird but when you go through this- it does make you strongr as a person and together. You looks at all the stuff google gives you under 'anorexia' and its frightning- the stpories send shivers down your spine... But i no at the end of the tunnel there is a bright light and one day we will get there together but she will no leave and she will get better i no she will... And im so sure of myslef because? Because , she has the strength and she has lots of people like me to tell her its all going to be ok....
But if you have a friend who is going through anorexia or maybe you are but just keep happy and smile and SHARE THE LOVE x